Hello fair people. It’s been quite some time since I’ve written. I’ve just been so busy with a life I don’t want that it’s hard to write anything or get around to it. Honestly, a big bout of depression clouded my activity along side everything.
I’ve been working at a car dealership in the detail department. I really don’t mind cleaning cars but the coworker kid is slow and lazy and that grates on my nerves. I’d worked in the lube as a tech for a few weeks which was exciting but then my boss patronized me out of that spot saying I’d made too many mistakes. So I went back to detail.
The kids have been in school and I had a parent teacher conference. They seemed to be adjusting well, but are beginning to dislike it for all the reasons I’ve always disliked the school system. Galixy especially hates getting up early and is quiet in school, which is quite the contrast to real life Galixy. Atreyu made a good friend and is very liked by all the teachers.
Caleb left to go back east the day after my birthday. We miss him so very much and can’t wait for him to come back. He definitely made my birthday special taking me out to dinner, spanging me a tank of fuel, and proposing with a gorgeous thrift store ring. It’s been hard eing apart especially as I’m still in limbo on what’s going to happen to me and my situation. But he’s been busy climbing in the gorge, helping his friend set up climbing walls for a new gym, and impressively trying not to consume alcohol. He’s almost to two weeks of being dry and I’m very proud of him for his effort.
I’m currently being driven down for the 3rd time to Idaho court by my dad and step mom Chris. We’re going to change my plea from not guilty to guitly as a plea agreement has been filed and hopefully will be accepted all around. I almost feel like I’m closing the door on the possibility of a miracle freeing me from these circumstances. But if all the plea agreement goes through I might “only” get probation with a chance of having judgement withheld, meaning once I complete it all, they may dismiss all the charges completely.
Christmas is rapidly approaching and I feel very happy about the things my kids will be getting, and also pretty pleased about the other gifts I’ve come up with for the rest of the family.
A week and a half ago I had a colonoscopy, the prep left me super hangry. Then whilst at the hospital my mom caught the flu resulting in the entire household being laid out. I had to go collect the kids from school and we spent days being achey, sore, and low energy. It took much longer to recover from than I ever thought. The first couple days, my brother stepped up and made us teas and soups, but it ended up catching him, too. All of poor usses. only the animals were excempt by the ucks but they tended us with their cuddles and loves.
I insulated the bug with reflectix and got Matilda started for the first time in months. I cried when she fired up. I really miss running her, though I’ve been staying in her, while the kids and animals have been staying in the house. Occasionally Mauve, the cat, has stayed with me outside. Rhea’s been joining us on our excursions to Idaho.
That’s pretty much all I can really report on right now. I feel really lame and miss traveling and being amongst people so much. I feel very displaced and awkward.
Ironically having the flu made me snap out of the funks a little bit. Being in purgatory doesn’t help mental health. I wish there was more I could say or do… I am trying to save up to get a new bigger bus. I’m also dreaming of having my probation transferred to the east coast to be with Caleb. We both agree that we don’t want to get legally married but that if it’s helpful to getting us east, we’ll do what we have to, which includes finding habitation out that way.
I hope y’all have so much to be grateful for. I hope this solstice finds you contented and may the returning of the sun bring more joy into your lives. May it bring me some answers. Please keep me and my family in your prayers.
Share a smile for me and blow your stretch of road a big kiss from me. I’m eager to return to it, though so unsure on my own timeline.
Many blessings
Matilda the Bugus 