WOW!! I feel pretty incredibly stupid…. about the mystery fuel leak. I’d unscrewed the spot where the glow plugs are, researched it more, decided it didn’t need to get done yet, and then forgot to screw that spot back in. Been shooting diesel into the dog house which resulted in the drip under the bus and also some seepage into the cab. I should be embarrassed, but somehow I’m just happy I checked that spot and didn’t have to end up paying someone to figure this out for me. One problem down, manifold to go!
I also got the hoses to get our sink back to working properly and the joy of living in our bus is so immense. Maybe it’s because it’s our own space without other peoples negativity and bullshit hanging over us. I know there’s lots of spots in our build design where it could be made easier on me, but all in all, having our home functioning on most levels is just too awesome and indescribable. Having our home move and take us places is the best. I really love the convenience of pulling up to the grocery store and just loading it into our home, or into the hardware store and finishing our project in the parking lot, or the laundromat and having a fresh space to get things washed and loaded straight into our house. I do really wish I had a shower/ tub in here, but that just means we have good room for our goals. Keeping it real
I am sad to be leaving Missoula, I am planning on going back. The kids loved hanging out there and I certainly didn’t do all we could/should, like meeting up with family friends or going to park at the river at another amazing human’s house, but we have some time if everything goes well to do more of such.
I’m feeling weirdly relieved of some burdens and pressures I seem to have been carrying in me. I bet they won’t be gone forever but maybe they did delete themselves with the passive aggressive friendship that wass canceled on me graciously. I mean, if you can’t voice your displeasure during a conversation you’re not really letting another person know who you really are and start building resentment towards the other person you’re quietly judging. On that note, too, if you don’t voice your displeasure the other person has no reason or need to think that something they’ve done may be displeasing to you and how will they grow through that if it’s not addressed? Give them the chance to explain their thinking? Even if it doesn’t happen right that moment or makes the atmosphere a little uncomfortable, something good will come out of it eventually. Especially if it’s a mutual decision to not be friends anymore, at least there wouldn’t be blindsiding and complete sweeping the rug out from another person because there was too much people pleasing going on. It always culminates in the most hurtful way if approached deceptively. Friends can comfort us in our time of need, and they can help us grow through times, too. You CAN get your needs met from a variety of different angles and relationships but one has to be honest about it and also have the guts to speak up for their needs. On that note, all I lost was a superficial friend getting wore out on herself.
Gosh I feel worn out. We’ve been here at the playground for a couple hours now. It took me until afternoon to drink my second cup of coffee which means my addiction has grown over the summer. I don’t generally need more than one cup whilst on the road but today I certainly did.
The wind is really going strong. We are heading back because of my dental appointment on Thursday which reminds me that I have to text my therapist to call me like 15 minutes later than usual as my implant check begins just 15 minutes before the session. I’m a chaot.
But smart and beautiful and very human, so I forgive myself! *positive selftalk*
I’m really trying to be the best version of me. It’s just not always easy… especially when I’m in pain mentally or physically.
It’s a bit less of a mess in our home and I’m grateful for that. As I am also grateful for my children being such incredible human beings.
At all paces, I hope y’all are well and have room for gratitude.
This life is an adventure.
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