Happy Friday the 13th! Dearest readers!
It’s been so long since I made a post and a lot has happened! All paths lead to home for me considering our home went with us to so many places, but this year All paths lead to home in the most peculiar of ways! My heart’s been broken in so many different aspects and restored and lit a light to the road of healing!
The kids and I are now in a fantastically restored trailer, all thanks to Crikett and her amazing family! In fact, so many people pulled together in so very many ways it’s jaw dropping to think of the transformation my life has made in just under a month! It was a rather dramatic start with more implications I may touch on later, or not…. The thing most important to me are all of the people helping me when someones opinion meant more than love, respect, or, family.
At any rate, I spent 15 days in jail, where all the ladies were sweet and caring. I read a lot and worried even more. Crikett and Sam alleviated a lot of the worry by taking care of the children! Olga and Michael were also there to help spoil them and make their time of change easier to handle. Patsy and Luke went to get the doggos and took care of them splendidly!
Realizing we were going to need a space to stay, Crikett spoke to the guy who’d abandoned his trailer in the camper court and talked him into sending a bill of sale for it to her. It was a literal trash can and took a bunch of shoveling and dump runs to even get to the floor! Crikett and Olga teamed up on it enlisting Crikett’s brothers, Chance, Jeremy, and Brian.
Crikett also managed to transfer the kids’ school enrollment to Manhattan, got them completely outfitted for school, and ran the Bozeman Renaissance Faire which was a hit! Talk about super human and beacon of determination!
By the time I got out with a lot of help from my dad (loaning the money and cosigning for bail bonds then waiting for hours for my release before driving me across town to the probation office and waiting even more for my repercussions to be set up, truly do-dad hero mode), there was still a lot of cleaning to be done, so the kids and I stayed at Patsy’s for a few days. She didn’t just house us but prepared our meals and ensured our comfort in as much capacity as she could manage ( which is amazing to me on all kinds of levels)
Crikett and I swept, scrubbed, mopped, and painted for days with much vigor until we deemed the camper safe for the children and I to inhabit. I scheduled the police escort to retrieve my things, which was a much shorter time span than originally promised and the doors were locked, my things very disorderly and incompletely piled into the garage and my bus unplugged. All in all I felt very frustrated and disrespected about the venture, but so very grateful to the help from Crikett.
The kids and I moved into the camper trailer, Crikett loaning us the first months rent, and the kids have stated how happy they are to have our space despite missing our cat which was threatened to be catnapped because our love is supposedly inferior to the fickle fancy of another.
Today Crikett, Sam, Chance, Brian, and even Ron went to retrieve Matilda and a large chunk of our belongings! It took a lot of work but they amazingly brought Matilda home! We’ve got a lot of help over the last few weeks.
I feel beyond blessed to have such very amazing and special and caring people in my life. Everything could’ve been ruined and taken from me and I am facing three months of heavy repercussions all because I wouldn’t let a grown human bully and harass my almost 8 year old because they’ve deluded themselves into thinking I would put my child under psychological duress for my own pleasure, so instead of clarifying the situation calmly or following therapist or other situational authorities suggestions on how to handle the circumstances, taking it upon themselves to make everybody’s life and existence in their vicinity miserable. It is not I who will ignore reality in favor of fear mongering and delusions. I will always listen, support and defend my children, and further more anyone who needs help.
I now more fully understand how I could enter and maintain a romantic relationship where I was disregarded and disrespected for a whole year and I will totally heal that aspect in, not just for my sake, but for my children and anyone whose life I may come in contact with.
The way my true family came together to save me is jaw dropping and awe inspiring! More so inspiring from the minute details to the overwhelmingly huge problems I couldn’t have faced without this love and support. I’m truly humbled learning how broken I am, seeing where I’ve come from, and beyond grateful to be loved with all my flaws by the most amazing people, knowing no words or actions will ever truly express or come close to conveying how much it all means to me, how powerless I am to ever coming close to reimbursing for the love and gratitude I feel.
The best I can hope for is being a good person, a good friend. Someone who cares and gives the best I can to whomever needs it, but especially making my people feel loved and truly appreciated with every ounce of my being. Giving positively and teaching my kids to live their lives authentically and with grace and being open and giving and taking care of themselves so they may take care of others with love, just the way we’ve experienced.
And, with that, I truly hope you have good people in your life. I hope you get to lead the life you deserve, and I know so many wonderful people who deserve so much goodness. I hope you have a smile and lots of grace in your day(s). Personally, I hope I didn’t forget any of the kindness worth mentioning today, I truly hope to never forget all of the kindness I’ve received throughout the years.
I found a treasure chest I’d gotten from Olga years ago where I’d stored wishes to manifest and the biggest one in it wished for “successful and fun travels” and truly you all, and Matilda, have brought me so much success and so much fun, and, while I miss that life so very much, I am so grateful to be where I’m at and so very grateful for all that I’ve experienced in this journey and excited to see how this will go!
I am currently desperately hunting for a local job to be able to afford the lot rent where the trailer is parked. Matilda is parked close by for organization but will be moved to Patsy’s place for longer term storage (so grateful for that help!) There are a few options but I’m just really hoping for something manageable vs. the gas station that only wants to hire someone that will work ALL the hours they’d please, which doesn’t sound enticing in the least.
At any rate, if you’ve got a little to spare, I could surely use the help in donation as I don’t just have to afford the lot rent, I want to pay Crikett back, and should purchase snow boots for Atreyu and maybe some rain gear for both the kiddos. I’m still 9% away from finishing my yoga education, a surgery and then jail put a damper on my progress. I’d been working spinning cotton candy and saving most of those earnings in hopes of fixing the Subaru issues and also Matilda in and out, alas the circumstances and an unfortunate event in West Virginia sucked most of those savings away. Your kindness is truly appreciated!
As always, PayPal or cashapp @matilda.bugus or Venmo @Sitton-Bugus or contact me for other options at Matilda.bugus@gmail.com
If you need reminding about how much we appreciate you, I’ll be glad to oblige that too, but please speak up so I can know your need, because I do truly appreciate you, despite all the things on my plate, it will be an honor to hear from you.
Thank you for being you and a part of this life.
Very sincerely,
Your Bugus captain
Laney
Matilda the Bugus 