Month: February 2019

Obviously my phone is in my hand and I failed at keeping it out of my hand all day. But the morning was very manageable and my sleep was barely disrupted, so my phone will be put on the back burner more for sure. The sun is shining in the bright blue sky. Theres chill … Continue reading I prefer my mornings sunny

One thing after another. And all little trifles but when the pasta sauce turned out moldy, I cried. And cried again when the pee jug spilled. At least there was enough noodles to feed the kids. I just want today to be over. I'm so done with this cold wet day, ready for my mini … Continue reading Crying doesn’t clean up the spilt pee either

Just two days ago, I was feeling like a good human, following my mission. Right now, I'm feeling smudged and misunderstood. A migraine seems to be coming on. I'm torn between hiding and curling up to escape, or taking the boys to a playground. My head isnt computing very well and I feel like it's … Continue reading The low times are hard

I'm beaming! From one ear to another. My existence is doing THE thing I enjoy most. Smiling! It's important! It's my mission. The act of smiling, (I'm not going into scientific analysis here, somebody else can do that for me) is infectious. It makes a person charismatic. I'm the perfect example. I've got this resting … Continue reading Smiling is everything

It's a windy, cloudy day. We're parked at a park which has very inconvenient parking options. It made driving in very frustrating, but now we've been here a couple hours and a very nice gentleman came by to donate a little. We finally found the right side of Tucson. Even at out walmart we got … Continue reading Why I don’t receive child support

Right now: sitting on the hood of the bus, surrounding parking lot west from a day worth of rain. Kids are watching turbo because it's better than fighting over their new leapfrog toy. It's almost their bed time but I dont mind them going to bed "late" as long as I get some quiet time … Continue reading Two long days behind us

For years I've had this theory that Febuary is the worst month of the year. I totally forgot about it this year. Today was shit. And it must have something to do with febuary beginning. Or maybe because I woke up a million times last night? I'm leaning towards febuary, though. Waking up last night … Continue reading I forgot about febuary

Joe is a grade B scammer. I'm so mad at myself for letting it get to that point and not seeing the red flags clearly for what they were. I mean, what kind of a guy is happy that my boys dont have dad's? Maybe that's "less drama" but that's a wicked thing to say. … Continue reading Bitter much but onward