Hello lovely people!
It’s been a long time since I’ve updated anything…per Facebook I almost shut this down but the blog deducted before I canceled and I’ll be hiring Patsy to reformat this so I can maybe edit. this experience.
Things are going great! I work and our space is being continuously worked on. The kids did great in school and made some friends. The dogs are happy and we adopted another cat that Meauve is getting along ok with.I’e made tons of friends and hyper fixated on plenty of projects.
There’s so much going on it’s hard to spill into a blog and it makes me wish I had updated this more but I know that I couldn’t have. Even now I’m running away from this project more than sticking to it though I’ve contemplated this for close to a month now.
Very important: my friend Kim has hit the road with her two munchkins and I’m hoping her plan to come here and stay close to me will commence though I can totally see her getting distracted by the joy of road life. I’m feeling more excited for her than jealous, but I do have this aching hole of yearning to be back on the road.
It’s silly that I can just ignore it most of the time, I’m so busy. I work 4 days of the week and the kids go to therapy on Friday’s and I still do therapy on Thursdays. Then they also get a big brother and big sibling through Big Brothers Big Sisters that they have regular meet ups with. Atreyu has a friend that does and rides his bike to us and Galixy is consistently outside playing with all the neighborhood kids. They do their chores and sleep in every summer day.
It’s super peaceful. I do get drama exposure but it’s always observable rather than involvement.
I go on many walks and play ukulele and listen to a bunch of audiobooks. Just since December I’ve been through close to 50 different books.
We’ve been out on the paddleboard already and I really need to fix my Subaru so that can happen more often. Or Matilda. I also need to figure out refrigeration for our home. I’ve paid all my court fines and keep up well with all other standards.
The first weekend of summer was very exciting. Besides Ren Faire I also found a traveling buddy walking up 19th in Bozeman on my way to court. So I scooped him on the way back and he got to hang out for a couple days and ride with us to Columbus where we dropped him and headed on for two days of cotton candy sold from a pirate ship and seeing a lot of cool people while hanging with the coolest of them all: Crikett and her family.
I’m so thankful to be in the spot we’re in. This is the best way I could spend my time while it is so. We have community and our own space and comfort. A space to grow. Speaking of growing! I have 3 plants that have not died yet! One even survived winter in our little ice box so I made room for two more. One will definitely end up going to the office for winter.
I’ve even reconnected with old friends. Shocking considering I’m in the town I spent school time in. I’ve got to say that living in town (even the outskirts) is a world of difference from even 10 miles out.
Really it’s a whole different life. 3 different lives in as many years. The kids have expressed their desire to go back on the road and that makes me happy because it makes me feel like they do like that lifestyle. Like I’m not forcing them into a situation they don’t have an ounce of enjoyment for. As it’s always been I want my kids to feel freedom to choose their experience. I observe and support there growth and choices in hopes they feel confident with making choices for themselves instead of consistently being told what to do. Freedom of choice brings happiness. Feeling stuck in any manner breeds sadness. So I follow their lead and very rarely make suggestions, mostly then in strategy of maneuvering (“is that how you want to pour that? Is there a tool that’s gonna make it easier on you?”) I’ve got some insanely smart and kind kids. My public defender called them “thoughtful” the time she met them. And they are getting to be SO big! And capable! What a joy to see these little humans sprout to be bigger humans.
And I got to make friends with Crikett’s youngest. We played a good game of “unsure” and “cold shoulder” which I eagerly obliged cause she’s such a darling! And now she’s beginning to really enjoy my company outwardly too! She’s asked me for help and held my hand and listened to my request a time or two which is huge for toddler! Sam and Crikett are powering through the hard times of little ones and the kids are extensively happy and well rounded which speaks volumes for the effort invested by the adults.
I’m going all over the place, I know but it’s literal thoughts coming and going and that’s what’s gonna make editing a blog to a book super fun. Each blog is all over the place, each time I blogged was all over the place. That’s just a very accurate theme.I
Digressed from the thought. I have options on Matilda. One of my neighbors has experience in diesel mechanicing and Crikett is up for helping me rebuild the interior. There’s two goals: get her parked proper like and use her as an RV (please!!) or drive her down to NM on a travel permit to peaches to where I can get her again when I’m ready. Ok so but that discounts all the other things that need to happen for setting up for after probation: I must find a wholly different transmission for the beast, or purchase this bus that’s perfect length and has the body of an airplane on it??! Ok so my problem is that it’s also sitting on a very old bus Would not mind the speed limiting parameters so much as the maintenance. Tires are also said to be a bitch to come by so I have a few cons on that bus though I really love the thoughts of the sessna(?) on this beast making for an excellent double bunked kids room. HOWEVER, The diesel mechanics wife has welding experience and I’m HALF tempted to ask her for kelp. But also, as much as I love sleeping in the bug, I think Imma make it into a plants and chilling area. Some cabinets. Man do I have ideas. But that’s only future possibilities and I don’t even want to pretend to know what will happen. So I’ll just keep it in my brain for now.
I have about an hour before I gotta be at work and the kids are still sleeping. There’s more coffee to be drunk and probably some things I’ll neglect cleaning so I can have some chores for the kids to do! If I’m working and they’re home all day, I better have less chores when I get off work than before (one of the chores is spend 3 hours outside. That cuts down the mess inside the house, unfortunately not in our yard)
Things are good and I hope things are good for you too. If they are not, I hope you have the strength to change (it) Or may the universe shove you on your ass to where you need to be.
Loving you
Matilda the Bugus 