I’m currently impressed with todays date numbers. Very nice indeed. I also realized that I’ve been having a hard time for a while now and I feel like a lot of that has probably been impacting my writing. All the mechanical issues weigh down and maybe I’m feeling a little lost.. or more accurately suspended…. in limbo… neither here nor there. A place in which decisions are harder.
Atreyu just said he isn’t feeling so well. We did have some fairly cold days this last week and now it’s almost overwhelmingly warm again. We’re currently at a playground hiding in the shade. Both kids only played on the equipment for about ten minutes before returning to the bus. Both are chitchatting and keeping me from writing, which is generally wonderful that they’re enjoying my company and have things thoughts they want to share…. but some of the nonsense coming out of their mouths is straight up floccinaucinihilipilification. maybe on my part but they’re kids! The meaning of their words more so than the subject. The subjects are usually profound. It’s just distracting and hard to keep my train of thought with two more interceding. And then Galixy asks when I’m going to be done as if she didn’t just hold a five minute conversation with me. It’s feeling comical by now.
We woke up to a note on our window telling us that there was no more overnight parking allowed and we would be towed if we remained past the 24 hr parking limit. Unclear how one can park for 24 hours without parking overnight, but that’s why following rules to the letter can become confusing.
We did take a good week to absolve the total three hour drive. In the beginning, I was mentally and emotionally overwhelmed. I probably still am since this lovely momma I crossed paths with said se could see it in my eyes that I’ve been going through it and that was ind of a shock to me. I’ve been capable of just flowing through things, keeping mindset of things are working this way for a reason, so I could smile and achieve the necessary things. Not that I’m not still hopeful and wondering where this path ends up taking me with faith to greater things. Some evolution of some kind.
We hung out in Ponchatoula for a good little while. I’m the asshole because I found the lady I was looking for and managed to establish contact right after starting to avoid the harshest part of the incoming storm.
The kids and I were working on homework and it seemed extra frustrating, so I asked them if the homework seemed harder than usual and they said no, so I figured it must be me. We took a break from homework and went to a park at the beach.
The park itself and the street to the beach said “no pets” and I remembered we’d been there before and how much I’d stressed about the sign just to see a bunch of people with their dogs around the area, so I decided to be as respectful as possible while still ignoring the sign. The kids played at the playground for a little while but the beach was way more enticing. I didn’t blame them and very much enjoyed putting my feet in the sand for a little. They were so preoccupied and happy being in the sand, I even got around to doing a little yoga before we took a walk along the water.
I also changed the music I’ve been listening to. Not that I’ve been listening to sad music, but maybe I’ve been getting caught in some kind of loop. Trying for even more variety.
Spoke my pieces to some friends. Can’t really call it peace because I’m still in the processing and seemingly same on the other front. I’m not putting time limitation on it. It’ll be what it’ll be. Usually seems the less I say the better, but saying nothing leaves me dissatisfied too… Guess I gotta find a balance somehow.
Communication is easy on the surface but super hard all in all and the longer you know someone and avoid deep communication the harder it feels. Sometimes also harder for the other person to take in?
I had to discontinue writing at the park (a few paragraphs ago) but am currently hastening to finish this pulled into Kim’s driveway before she and the birthday girl make it home! The neighboring kids have been coming by and asking me lots of questions about my dogs, so I finally just escaped into the bus when my phone warned me of it’s low battery.
Looking at my mess I’m seeing an inefficient spot needing reorganization. The kids pushed one of the legs of their table out, so I’ve got more handy projects on my plate…. We’ll see how that goes. All the projects, but thinking of a whole new bus is a whole nother set of extra pulling and screwing, just hopefully not on the mechanical side…. I have not been actively looking. Just kind of scanning and dreaming about things. Worrying about others. I like Matilda’s size. I like her name and our history. Whine whine whine.
The momma we crossed paths with had a beautiful son with her who enticed Galixy to come out away from tablet time to play some running games. Aryiah (?) and I had a nice chat. And by nice I mean I was probably stress venting a little and feeling seen. She gave me her phone number so we could reconnect. Thanks for reminding me to message her. oof…
Ok off I go to upload yall some pretty pictures of our walks and stuffs…..
As you can probably see, these kids are making leaps and bounds about this growing thing. Proponent to a bigger bus is that Atreyu is growing to need his own room and that means Galixy isn’t far behind that either! I can’t live the same life with such sprouting imps. I just have to breathe through the discomfort of change.
I hope you have the space to do that too. If you’re comfortable, share the smile to help the strugglers see something positive. Maybe they’ll find the space to smile back or pay it forward. It’s always been a message of lighten another’s load just with your presence.M
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