How often do I hear these words? At least a few times a week. My retort is always, “Oh but you can!”
But just now I had this beautiful Momma drive by and a new sentence entered my mind.
“Well maybe I can give you some spark about it.”
And I feel this is probably something worthy of being shared more widely.
Life is all about choices. We only have this one life. You deserve to make choices that make you happy.
We don’t all fit into boxes and it’s a shame to try and squeeze ourselves into such without considering the things that make us happy and feed our souls; or we’re actually uncomfortable with if we were to take a closer look into.
Like for me, I’m wholly uncomfortable with the daycare stories and perception. I’m unwilling to compromise especially because the alternative is that I get to spend the time with my kids. Traveling and nature feed my soul.
Now we’re in the schooling faction, and on that level, traveling builds IQ and can be it’s own lifelong education to persue, Why would I want to put my kids into public school if we can do better and have all the resources readily available at this time of modernity. It would be a shame to deprive my kids of such a passion of mine.
If something bad is to happen, it’ll happen regardless of your location or circumstances. Everything always has pros and cons. Emotions are gonna find you and life happens. Sometimes the not so good things have a purpose and you find yourself in the right place at the right time, and learning amazing lessons.
Experiencing a lot and being out there builds character and muscle. You are strong and cam find your way in this crazy world.
Yes, it’s scary to jump into something unknown, but you don’t have to do it all at once. And you don’t have to stick with it either. You can change your mind.
Just because you might feel like you’re doing boring things, but there’s a beautiful, bright, and interesting light within you and you’re worthy.
We have this concept of what we need and how life works imprinted on us from society, but our needs are very varied. Sometimes you find you need some things less than you thought, and other times the things you need blossom by experience. I need beauty in my life. I need to see new things. I need a backrub. So I stretch and yoga and work on it myself. Sometimes my kids help gently
Being blocked off and kept busy by life, job, and various media feeds fear and create blockages. Once you’re out there you’ll find a plethora of kindness. It’s consistently amazing where and how kindness shows through. Be authentic and unafraid.
I’ve not always “run on donations” with a cool bus, and it was certainly not always so peachy on the social interactions. I was dirty in a small bus with two really wee ones, usually sitting at a truck stop with my gas jug while the kids napped or I entertained them with books. I’ve had people judge me harshly on my choices and call police to do wellfare checks almost regularly.
When Manny put that bug on there he said, “You’re life is about to change. I’m changing your life and you don’t even get how it at all.” I said that I definitely don’t but I’m excited to experience it.
It helps 100% to have people already smiling as they approach the bus. Before, when I was holding a cardboard sign and had started painting the bus, I tried to inspire smiles. I do believe that a smile is as infectious as a yawn and it carries just a little further. I really hope these smiles go far. I really hope it inspires others to get loud with what they’re doing.
It’s all relative. I’m not saying do it like I’m doing. But I’m saying that if you follow your heart and put your feet in the water, YOU will find a path that works for you. I believe in you. Even if I don’t like you, I believe in you and your capabilities. First, and foremost, make yourself proud. Be a little brave. Be a little brave to exist sometimes too. Or just let yourself exist, if that fits you best at one time or all.
Nothing is written in stone, except the petroglyphs, but even those can get changed with a little vandalism (I AM NOT ADVOCATING VANDALISM. I’m just saying. LEAVE THINGS HOW THEY ARE. take only pictures and leave all the footprints. On the soil, not on artifacts, soil, delicate plants, or animals.)
This world is beautiful and I really wanna see as much of it as possible. I know, I’m not the only one, and I know not everyone feels that way either, but if you’re one of the ones that yells it with every part of their heart: “I wanna travel too!” and then hear a little “but…. what if I can’t?” You won’t know until you try. And maybe you’ll find you prefer to stay in one spot. Maybe you won’t travel in a crazy skoolie full time. Maybe you’ll find ways to save up for adventures by plane, or boats. Maybe you’ll be like this lady I just heard about today who rides her motorcycle around the world, currently in South America (?) I can think of so many different ways I’d personally want to try to travel, because it’s about the experience and not just the destination. How it feels, the speed or slowness revealing incredible sights, the air, the weather, the exposure, fellow travelers…. Maybe you have something incredible you want to show the world. Maybe you’ll tumble into it like I did.
It’s variables and hard to be all inclusive on this, maybe sharing another personal anecdote will help the writ.
I was, like almost 22? years young. Holding a job at a gas station with some awesome coworkers and not having too bad a living situation and some friends I held close. I’d had a fair variety of different jobs and regardless of how cool management was I felt dissatisfied especially on mornings having to go to work first thing. (Sometimes first thing is 1PM for line cook -self) But I relished my days off in the sun hiking with my pup or just laying around all day watching movies and doing poor-excuse mini walks of basically just letting the dog out for a quick go.
So, one day, it was especially beautiful how the light shined through the trees on our mid August hike. My mood was post morose from a recent break up and the fresh air lightened my heart and I thought, “Why am I waiting to travel? What am I waiting for? I’m not feeling good paying for all this stuff I don’t need. All I need is my doggo and a path to walk and I could just keep going and going instead of hiking to this lake just to hike back to my car, to drive back to the place I pay for which is really the only reasons I hold a job….” And thoughts kept coming and wouldn’t stop until I set things in motion.
My determination meant that I would find a way to travel and face down whatever came in my path. On another level, maybe I didn’t hold my mortality in high regard at that age.
Doing stupid things is a lot easier when you’re young. But don’t despair! We can thrive to do stupid things in old age, too! It’s never too late. 😉 It doesn’t hurt to mention that what looks stupid to one, may look genius to another. Understanding is the key.
May your faith be greater than your fears.
Do the things that make your heart soar.
Fluff the haters.
Be kind.
But be fierce.
Know thyself
or do your best to learn what you have in store for yourself today.
I hope you smile.
I hope you dance.
I hope you travel.
Stay grateful
Support your artist.
Mind your business.
Stay healthy.
Be blessed.
Matilda the Bugus 