The current state of affairs in this world is opinion pitted against opinion while everyone seems to want the same thing (freedom? happiness?)
In reality I’m fighting tooth and nail against fleas and ‘semi’ quarantine (I’m honestly not harshly avoiding contact with people, but wearing a mask in public places and staying at my mom’s instead of traveling. No matter what I believe about the severity of whatever, it doesn’t cost me anything to be mindful and use this weird time in some efficient way, even if that means sometimes just resting cause I can’t really afford to do anything anyway…..) soooo with the intent fight against fleas in reality and a wonderful spectacle of human interaction online cummulating information bias and openly looking into the few glimpses algorithms give me to opposing views, I’ve taken the time to *gasp* think a lot. I figured this would be a good place to put my little thought meanderings. A distraction of a probably unbiased source about a lot current things. From coming across this article about how #SaveOurChildren is a fake conspiracy theory on my feed this morning surmising in the following pictured comments, to my immediate future, they may tell us to stop moving about physically, but I believe it stores up energy or you begin to move mentally. Over-thinking, can be a problem……
Reading over it I think I could’ve explained some thoughts more, but the end continuation of my process AT THE MOMENT is that I would rather look back and say that I opened my eyes more to possibilities and found strength to hopefully do the calling out when needed. That I used this information to educate my kids to keep them safe. That I stood up for children who may not have someone to stand up for them. I would not want to look back and think “they were saying this and I just threw away the information and more kids got harmed in the process.” Would it be terrible to look back and say “I was duped into believing something horrific.” Maybe this is causing some people to disrupt helplines with not so helpful information but that happens in every field of perspective and opinion, you can trace folly and inconsistencies with Benfords law, so maybe if you seek real truth we could figure something out with that (get in touch with me, I’m in no way smart enough to tackle this one by myself…..) on another note, what are we being distracted from, besides everything?
Let’s just keep tackling these things here, cause I can care about all of it as much as one of it and so can you! BLACK LIVES MATTER. If I can be an ally I will. There will always be outliers in every community and I won’t condemn them except for when it’s hateful or harmful. I can support any movement seeking equality. “Save the Whales doesn’t mean fuck all other fish.” And protestors blocking traffic have made a point of letting emergency vehicles through. The government has deployed “non-lethal” weaponry against it’s own citizens. There was infiltration to set people off. Does my opinion on any of this actually matter? Absolutely not. I’m just trying to observe as much as possible and speak up when I have the chance and the courage to do so. That courage is sometimes tied to emotional labor availability.
On a less serious note of a controversy “distracting us” Cardi B’s WAP. I HAVE to remark I’m not much into mainstream rap. Or rap in general. Every genre has good and bad songs and artists and I’ve heard some amazing rappers with beautiful messages, too, I just don’t put that on my playlists anymore. So, aside from my taste in music, Cardi B and big name celebrities generally hold little interest for me (“allegedly” some have dark sides that reach for children, regardless of the faces they’ve presented to the public…. I mean I’ve read lots of things about how nice and awesome Tom Hanks is and he was one of the earlier ones named. early programming would say, see the evidence of how awesome he is! he wouldn’t do that! But abusers are sneaky and have a good public persona too? Who’s profiting? What was leading up before this all came out? lalalalala EPSTEIN DIDN’T KILL HIMSELF! conspiracies if that means he’s still alive or if he was murdered or whatever) Back to WAP, the only “violence” in the lyrics is consensual. It’s just another song about sex in that industry, but full of female empowerment for their own pleasure. Are they playing that “pick me” trend? it doesn’t sound like it to me. They’re not even bashing vanilla from what I heard. On that level, the Megan Trainor song “all about that base” (No trebble) that I blared along to (off key) could be seen as more problematic…. not that I’m against base, but trebbles got it’s place…. She’s also just stating her preferance, I guess, so whatever.
All in all, I don’t think there’s “one real” pandemic. The planet’s sick. We’re still burning fossil fuels like no tomorrow while there are alternatives (each have pros and cons obviously) but there’s an overwhelming amount of information out there. So I’ve been watching a lot of documentaries in various subjects because they all end up connecting in some way (Hello! we’re all in this world and cosmos) I’ve been turning my eyes inward with meditation, some yoga but I need more motivation, lots of bugus work of caulking, sealing, spraying, washing, organizing…. all of that work being an explosion in my mom’s face. (I’m sorry. I see you trying to be as patient as possible and putting up with our nonsense) Dreaming of extensions. Health care of dogs and kids, though the kids are having less problems than the 4-leggers. I’ve pulled out crafting things and wrote poetry, anything to help me achieve my goals. I’ve made thoughts and efforts into looking at psychology schooling…. I’ve made thoughts towards moving to a completely different country.
Rhea’s pretty healed from having about 17 teeth pulled from her mouth (all rotten, miss made it almost to 10 years old and now has a matching number of teeth for that age) Almost the following day after she experienced an intense opioid crash, she tried to eat dry kibble. I had an interesting 2 weeks fighting her to eat “wet food” or moistened kibble, AND she ‘was’ in heat. So both of the boy dogs were going Ca-razay! But a grande of a bill for those teeth, I can’t afford another 200 per doggo nut pair. I’m still calling around but the main low income neutering spot also doesn’t have openings for months and that’s a staying commitment I’m scared of.
Atreyu’s learning more about details in life and what independance actually means (not that he’s independant XD but he’s his own entity of a human) I would say this process is fun to watch, but he can get very frustrated with it, which is human and I think he’s right on track for being human and his age.
Galixy is also learning about some independance in the form of not being in my face ALL day, and especially not touching my face randomly over and over. When we’re in a moment of frustration, sometimes I get blown away by the audacity my kids have. And then, looking back, it doesn’t seem quite as bad…. Unfortunately the same is true with their good behavior. So blown away, then I say tell someone and as I say it I feel the air coming out of the subject. Is it because they’ve amazed me with something new or they’ve then adapted the new thing into a habit? Is it the profoundness of the “first time” or just the moment? Is it because parenting, we’re stuck in somewhat of a different world, and as we adult the happenings it loses the magic?
I want to finish this off with a poem I wrote… on facebook Because that’s the place to publish XD haha just kidding. I didn’t see it as something I was trying to write as cohesion or real poetry, but it came together.
Matilda the Bugus 