Beginning of September

Good day! I must remark that the earlier post about current events was written on the 14th of august. During the time I figured I might gain more insight before publishing. Alas, we are still blind and guessing. As always in the now. What is truth? what is real? For sure, my unicorn pajama pants and the love my children feel. Those are certainly real and glorious 🙂

The fight with fleas has expanded but I feel less hopeless about it. Even though we’re at a temporary empasse as tragedy struck our dogs! My Rhea was acting really lethargic and sad and she didn’t improve over a few days, so I took her to the vet. Diagnosis was surgery or chihuahua death. Pyometra, an infection of the uterus with a closed cervix led to an $800 spay. My mom ended up paying the entire bill, bless her heart, especially since she had just paid 2 more dog vet bills. Her dog, Leo, got out of the gate and attacked a neighbor dog. My brother paid for some of the initial Leo- bill, his ear got torn. The other dog needed 3 drainages in his leg and my mom paid for that too. Leo is a sweetheart of a doofus; he managed to get his ear out of the bandage and it got infected so he’s been in and out of his vets office. So we have 2 conehead dogs whom we can’t wash and my mom found fleas in her area. hmpf. So expanded deflea area with some problems. trying to keep it in check until we can erradicate.

I’ve been doing lots of mini projects around my mom’s house and the bus. Have been also trying to take the bus out more. Exposure makes my stats go up. Yesterday I did my first door dash in Bugus. I delivered 5guys to the Hospital which was kinda stressful, but I also got 52 views on my blog. Door dashing, delivering food, seems like it will be a great way of subsidizing some income. But I’m not sure how that will work out with my food stamps. I will be calling the to find out. I hope they’ll work with me till we figure out that routine.

I’m getting a permanent crown put on my incisor on the 15th of September, and soon after that I’ll hopefully be heading out. Rhea should be healed by that time and I think I should have everything I really wanted to do here done. That checklist was HUGE. Stupid Corona kept me from seeing my dad and best friend Crikett. I saw Crikett once while she was still pregnant and by now she has a beautiful baby boy I’ve only met via pictures with how much that hurts me, I can only multiply that pain by 1000 to try to imagine how Crikett feels as she feels the need to protect her family means exclusion of so many people wanting to bestow love on her family. I haven’t seen my step mom at all and my dad only a couple times. The loss of their presence is a big toll on my experience here. Definitely a perspective on having complained in previous years on being alone.