We left Danny’s today. He was very sad to see us go. He did the best he could setting us up in our little house.
Last night we were at Danny’s, he got a call to help someone set out their dog (yes! abandonment!) I told him he couldn’t put that dog out, but to go get it before the guy got someone else to do it! The little chihuahua’s name was Shortie. I’m acclamating him to the name Stormy. Our shortness is too obvious to have a dog named Shortie. He’s supposedly 10 years old, but his teeth look like a young dog’s. His first night he cried and cried. Last night was better, though I can tell his little heart is beyond broken. It makes me think of how Rhea would feel if we got separated and I feel his deep sorrow. I can only promise him that he has love here too.
I headed north, hoping to get out of shut down area of texas and avoiding metropolitan areas. Thinking of Sonny in the area, headed to Oklahoma. He’s not at his mom’s right now. He’s working and helping his daughter out. It makes me feel like he’s doing what he’s supposed to and I don’t know what I’m doing. I posted this on facebook and got an hour back south close to Austin to go chill for a couple weeks max from a very long standing family friend. She has 3 kids and a dog with her husband. It’s a very solid offer I really appreciate and am strongly considering.
I’m worried about if we stop traveling being able to adapt back to it, especially since society won’t just go back to normal. And, then again, my mission is to share smiles and I feel like what I do could be very important right now. Especially with how I’ve been doing it. I feel like I bring people together. And that unity can be invaluable in this time of disaster. I just want people to LOOK outside the box and be happy. How do I achieve such hunkered down?
On another note, this is a chance to connect on a deeper level and really help out somewhere. Take it easy on my transmission….
I think the answer lies somewhere in the in between. I realize that economically I’m on the losing side considering that most jobs are currently laid off and everybody is facing hard times. The only thing I can really hope for is that others see smiling as something worthwhile and try to share me with someone they love.
I have a few offers at place to go but most of them are west. I’ve been working so had trying to go explore east and it’s been quite hard. It kinda makes me think of the journey in “the Alchemist” where as he got closer to his destination it got to be harder to test his determination. I also don’t want to go to where the virus is centralized, but can you imagine Bugus driving down a desert metropolitan street? Like a parade? What a silly little day dream.
It’s morning time and the dogs have been out. Atreyu is playing with the kid camera and Galixy is building blocks while the dogs are snoozing. My coffee is half full but cold, but it can be remedied. My belly is asking for something more substantial than coffee, though. Uncertainty makes my tummy churn…. or empty tummies make me uncertain? No lack of food thanks to the generosity of Samantha and her mom who dropped off loads of food and some clothes that Galixy really loved.
I haven’t worked on my vlog because I feel like all the questions I answered were pre-virus. Maybe it’s still relevant and I can add videos as this situation evolves. I felt braver (and more stupid) driving out of texas yesterday than ever. Sometimes bravery comes across as stupidity to people who aren’t in the situation (not pertaining since I’ve gotten no comments on how dum or reckless I am, but I think it’s a perspective.)
We are going to take a 40 minute drive from Hugo to Idabel to at the very least see Sonny, maybe talk some stuff out. Get me a bit more certain on what I want to do!
At any rate, I hope you’re finding some amazing things to be grateful for! I hope you’re eating healthy and taking care of yourself!
Stay well! Stay grateful!
Share some joy. Share a smile.
Matilda the Bugus 