I’m beginning to shake off the sludge of non-activity. We’ve been helping out with the Big Sky Farmers market most Wednesdays. The first few weeks we had my niece over for the weekdays, but she became fed up with my “strictness” and I became fed up with her not sharing and disrespectful attitude. My boys need less attention when she isn’t present and there is less havoc wrought as well. My brother works often, and does little to nothing when he is at home. My mom is trying to break free of drama, though the process isn’t easy, I see a blue horizon coming for her.
The kids are driving me to a breaking point. I’ll be giving one instructions and the other is doing the destruction as I’m speaking, then the kid getting instruction won’t listen and stands staring into space. I think I need a solid something to get my joy back for their nonsense.
Apparently the post I wrote almost a month ago finally made it to my facebook page? That was the CPS bullshit. Haven’t heard from them since. Must mean good things.
If you’re following via the FB page, you know I’ve taken the mid strip of flooring out. I cut and put a laminate hardwood floor in. Purchased some rubber floor trim. I took the foam out of the bug windows, purchased some plexi glass for exterior screwing. My propane tank is almost secured properly on the outside. I have a water tank that needs to be properly irrigated. Step by step little things coming together. Everything’s been cleaned out and into piles. My mom is enduring the bus-splosion quite well especially considering her intolerance to chaos. Since all the bedding has been nixed, we’ve been staying in my niece’s room. It’s far from ideal to me. I really prefer staying in my bus, but things need to get done. I keep telling myself it’s easier if I’m not in it in the way.
Yesterday I got on the appointment ball and scheduled dentists and doctors into our lives. yearly checkup and cleanings. I got into my cleaning the same day and the dentist told me I’d be losing one of my front teeth.
Today we’re at the splash park and playground. I think I’m looking at some serious time for the boys here. They’ve been needing some kid exposure. Which is made all the more possible by Crikett’s help. She lent me her Jeep, which is Atreyu’s favorite kind of car.
I’ve been very antisocial lately. incapable of holding conversations online or in person, not like I’m the most reliable in general. I still feel bad. Like I’m not giving all the love the people deserve of me. Maybe if I got some help, I’d feel more capable of giving some more energy. It will comes as it should. somehow everything will get done.
I purchased schooling supplies for the boys. I have to get serious on the legislative part of schooling. Altogether, a long list of to dos…
I sincerely hope you’re summer is passing slowly and comfortably. I hope you’re staying cool, though I seem to have issues staying warm enough for my taste after the wonderful southern spring temps.
I’m missing the road and my routine. I know the kids miss our daily excursions. I’m getting on my own nerve
Loving you!
Matilda the Bugus 