It’s a cold and windy day. The night seemed much warmer than the day. I’m getting more and more frustrated at being stuck here. I understand being preoccupied with your own life and being overworked in general, but then at least get the tools available to me. I will use every ounce of muscle and determination to get my shit done to be out of your way.
Then again, I might be stuck here for a reason. What that is, I don’t know. Probably will never know. I just want to be on a normal traveling schedule with the kids again.
I get a chance to examine my life though. I’ve been living it for so long, the things I find common place are uncommon in most perspectives. A facebook post I stumbled upon saying the OP felt scared cause he was officially “homeless in his van.” Homie, your home just became a lot more convenient. How many people basically live out of their car while paying a ton of money on their rent. 6 months from now he’s either rolling his eyes at posts as his, or be living back in a house.
Or the amount of time I spend speaking to police. That’s like a monthly thing for me, I’d say. A traveling friend had posted about his heart issues recently. A friend of his remarked that being a traveler of our caliber is a stressful lifepath because, amongst other things, Officer interactions are stressful. Even if I feel that I’m within my right to freedom, they don’t always agree. I’m not saying all police officers are corrput, but they did sign up to disregard their moral compass in all situations and protect the law and corporate conglomerates. They may be trying to “serve and protect.” I just know that this government is corrupt. So I feel justified in counting those encounters as tense.
Best advice I can give: know your rights, but only say what’s necessary to be said. Stay polite and smile. Make a minimal joke about the situation. Ask for stickers.
Another thing I’ve observed is that my kids are damn lucky to have me. I’m pretty damn on top of it. They may not have two parents, but they have a parent willing to do the work befit of multiple humans. If I found another fitting human willing to put this amount of effort in, we’d be a family to be reckoned with. But we’re doing ok for what who we are… what we do. Super rich in love and experience.
We had a nice dinner last night of ravioli and cheese sauce started by me and rescued by A. A seemed relaxed and happy last night. He said they would bring the air compressor tomorrow and we looked into replacing the drum breaks. I slept so hard. Waking up at 8:30 AM has been super refreshing. Today’s been a cold and rainy morning. The kids have been playing inside.
Hoping to get things done today.
Loving you ❤
Matilda the Bugus 