I’ve been lazy. Or just not writing at least. My muscles got quite the exercise lately. I don’t even know where I left off anymore really? We went to the Bio Parks and drove up into the mountains….
We spent two nights up on the road. The first full day was sunny and warm. I helped Haley level a spot and build a fire pit. We pulled cactus aplenty and dug deep enough to find the clay layer under all the rocks. I love intensive physical labor. It’s not like I currently need a mental distraction, but the mind numbing labor, singing along to poppy music, it’s just very satisfying. Finding a hard surface with the tip of the shovel, running it around the dir to find a nice crevace. The wobbly motion and weight of the shovel. The beauty of the exposed bohemoth. Trimming the dead branches off the trees and felling smaller dead ones altogether, then burning them in our new small, rock lined pit. I slept fantastic that night.
The kids played hard all day. Running up and down hills, climbing trees, fighting, and all the good things kids do out in the wild. They also slept well. Galixy passed out shortly after seven. It took Atreyu until nine thirty to fall exhausted into bed.
The next morning was very chilly. I had the stove going from the minute we got up until well to ten thirty when we migrated to the RV to hang out with Haley and the girls. It was too cold to do anything outside. High in the mountains, we dwell in the clouds. The mist smells incredibly fresh and really brings out the pine smell.
However, I’m not one to sit idly in the cold and so I packed up my vagabonds and we headed down the hill to Albuquerque where I found a playground to let the kids run before going to the grocery store and then going to see Paulina and her daughter.
They are very nice people. We watched Ghibli Studio movies, ate a good dinner, and had wonderful conversations. Noa is a half year older than Galixy. She was very cautious about us. She hadn’t had a nap so to me it’s very understandable. Something she wasn’t prepared to deal with in her tired state: people she hardly ever seen before.
We stayed the night in the parking spot out front of their cute little apartment. Paulina had a job interview, so it was good I was there for her daughter. I utilized the shower and then proceeded to clean up the little neglected areas around the house. In general, Paulina seems very tidy. Just like any household, there are times when a few dishes pile up and a bit more scum than usual clings to the edges of the sink. Little spots that hadn’t seen a wipe down in a little while. Paulina was blown away. I hope I didn’t step on her toes. I don’t judge anyone on how “sloppy” they are. I’ve seen some way worse messes, too. And I don’t hold those against those humans either. I just want to take a little bit of her load off, if I can.
Paulina got the job! A milkshake girl. Which is something that’ll get some money rolling in consistently. She’s lived in Albuquerque her entire life. She traveled in her “younger” years, but says that bum life didn’t really work for her. She said she didn’t really make any money and was consistently struggling. (I also don’t make “a lot” of money. I’m just very conscious of when and how I spend it. I don’t want to buy a bunch of throw away things, especially for the boys. I feel a lot better about thrifted toys, then we’ve gotten some use out of the product and kept another from being made to fill the gap of the product we consumed off shelves.) Her daughters father is barely in the picture, but they seem none the worse for it as a family unit.
The apartment walls are a bright yellow. It’s a pretty dated structure which adds to it’s charm. The kitchen seems like an afterthought crammed into a little area. The hardwood floors are creeky but easy to clean. There’s a back door where two or three apartments share a tiny cemented courtyard. I really see why Paulina loves this apartment and will be very sad finding a new one.
Haley and Javan rented a hotel room today and invited the kids and I over to take advantage of the Hot tub and bath. They boys really love playing with their daughters. We all lobstered out in the Hot tub. Galixy turned pretty red, but he just kept jumping in the water yelling “Back up a little! now catch me!”
I utilized some time inside the hotel to write, but soon realized the mood wasn’t the happiest and that my excluding myself from the company wasn’t really helping either. In all reality, nothing I could’ve done would’ve really changed the energy in there. I really hope for the best for these two, but I see a lot of work and healing in their future. I just gotta trust that it will all work out for the best for everyone. somehow.
Last night was full moon and spring equinox. Did my pagan self even light a candle? no. I managed to toss my bag of runes into the window. I didn’t even want to take them out cause I got worried the cat would scatter them. Which made me think of the cat. I let him sleep in the bug with Rhea and I. Rhea fell out of the bug for the second time since we’ve gotten it put on. That tells me enough of her displeasure about our guest, that I will not be inviting him back up.
Especially since he just took the liberty of publishing my post before I was ready. Full paragraphs missing an no pictures. I don’t even know who will read this before I get to updating it, and if they will then have the sense to come back and find the finished product? Should I care? I mean… I really do. I want my story to make sense.
I read this book of Poems: The princess saves herself in this one.
by Amanda Lovelace. It is a quick read of extraordinary depth and beauty. She took me on a journey through her life through her poems. I gave the book to Haley. But not before taking some pictures of the love this woman has put into her words. I feel a deep connection because of her connection to words and how they are her solice and companions. I thoroughly relate. I feel a different world weave itself around me as I write, or read. It may start in my brain, but the tenticles reach quickly and entwine themselves in briars so thick, reality ceases to exist. Here a little taste for you of Amanda Lovelace:
I am beyond grateful for my friends and connections. for my home and my family far and near. for all the little flowers starting to spring out of the ground. For warmth ahead. for words to envelope and arms to embrace.
Now if only I could find this damn package I’ve been trying to send out for ever DX
loving you so
Matilda the Bugus 