I’m here. Thinking in the morning. I think out of all the things I try to communicate, one of the most important is that we’re all individuals. We’re all different and what makes me happy doesn’t necessarily make others happy. If it works for you, I won’t tell you to stop and I won’t slap you with a generalization or assumption but try to see your perspective. And another important thing: think for yourself.
I’m done with all the hate in this world. Sworn it off. Combatting it not just with love, but also transparency. And trying my best to leave any aggression out of it (practice practice)
It’s a cold morning. I awoke to a message from my dearest German asking how I started on regular food for the boys. I can only laugh at that for myself because it’s such a typical first vs. 2nd thing. Atreyu didn’t show interest in food until he was six months old. And then I was cautious with what I introduced. But Galixy was four months old when he started looking at my food and reaching for it. His very first solid was a little spoon of Peanut Butter followed by a dehydrated apple ring to suck on. I figured if he showed signs of antiphalaxis it would be easy to guess which one was the cause. Also, I was driving and my boob was unavailable and the ensuing peanut butter mess was way more tolerable than a screaming baby.
We didn’t stay long in the Walmart parking lot. A kid going by Lotus came by the bus and tried to get a ride along but I was pretty adamant about not taking anybody on right now. He gave me his Ankh “charm”. It’s beautiful. I can’t believe he wore it around his neck under his shirt, it’s kinda big.
We didn’t stay long in Safford, all of us eager to get into a tub. And so we drove out of town on the Highway and then turned on a small and potholey road. The desert is alive with yellow flowers right now. It was absolutely gorgeous, except the chemtrails.
When we pulled up, we were surprised to see our friends, another traveling bus family here. The boys were shy and decided to be in our own pool to start with. I agreed since I didn’t want to put my dirty self right into their water. The water was piping hot but we soaked for a nice long time. Close to noon we had lunch and I chatted with an old hippie now vanlifer. He’s a very nice guy with lots of thoughts.
The boys played all day while I cleaned and stitched.
Towards evening the other bus family came back to the pools, so we enjoyed the last sun rays heating the tubs. I was indecisive picking a spot to park and now I still haven’t paid the$3 for the 14 day stay. (INSANE right??) but I will with my priorities tomorrow morning.
This evening we had a fancy spagetti sauce with peppers, Garlic, fresh rosmary, ground beef, and spinach. I made enough to have refilled the pasta sauce jar after having satiated all three bellies. The sunset was amazing from our hillside view.
The boys watched The Secret of Nhim again. I watched half of it, too, because Galixy wanted to cuddle. What a great movie. And Galixy fell asleep quickly so I had some time to cuddle Atreyu, too. They are smart and sweet and loving. I can’t say enough how grateful I am to be their mom. I tell them all the time, too. Kids need to hear things. Often. Clearly.
I’m exhausted. These springs have lithium and are at a 9 alkaline level. I ate super today, but could use some water. I don’t want to wake up to pee though. My bed is so warm and my dreams are so enticing. I can already feel them creep up. All the good things.
Loving you!
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Matilda the Bugus 