What to do on rainy, muddy woods days? Well, I did let the boys run a little in rain boots and coats, but cold rain makes fingers cold, so we started movies about half an hour ago. The weather doesn’t look like it’ll be letting up. All kinds of people have left, including Peaches. Rainy day is making me hungry, or bored enough to keep eating.
I got some time to be there for my friend. I haven’t seen her significant other, but I feel her frustration while also looking at his possible thoughts and emotions on it. I mean, I feel like theres awareness missing for both of them, which is understandable since they live in such close quarters. Just some humans humanizing.
Well, the boys are on dvd number 3. the bus is running and charging. Apparently both sides of the windows leak so I’m purchasing a big can of spray foam and sealing these suckers up as good as I can. Dont care if I need a saw to file it down or whatever, I need my shit not to be getting wet. I got some fresh baked cookies and will be boiling some raviolis for dinner shortly. Everything is steeped in mud and super wet. I cant wait for today to be over and tomorrow the sun will come out and there will be grass sprouts and maybe flowers in the desert. We will walk around as everything dries out and take full advantage of our one real day with these lovely weird people and our crooked society.
I want to make a note about me personally (because none of this is really personal, right?) The reason it irks me so much when people think I’m a man hater or gender biased about anything: I consider myself pansexual (besides poly”amorous”… Haha single but poly does that even work? Yes, I tell you) I really could care less about what’s between your legs or if you think it defines you or doesn’t define you at all. I care about your vibe, energy, demeanor, intent. I want to love you for purely you (as in why I keep most at a friendly distance, besides me not being delusional and thinking the whole world wants to be WITH me.) I want to see you rise to your full potential and realize that romance often gets in the way, though I do believe in being capable of holding multiple romantic partners in high regard, respectfully. As a mom of boys, I’ve experienced societal impressions for young boys and girls and I see them as harmful. In all honesty, I believe transgender is a societal construct. We put to much importance on baby genitalia and our expectations of what it implies that we’ve forced change. If you feel more comfortable expressing yourself as the opposite gender assigned at birth, or however, I will fully respect you and your wishes. I’m not living your life and you have every right to self expression and creating your happiness. It’s just my thoughts on that matter. And they are just thoughts and not truths. I’m just here to have a perspective and share it, so people can develop beyond their own perspective.
Loving you always!
Matilda the Bugus 