Yesterday was shower and laundry day. My friend sandy guided us to Garland who let us use his bath tub. He’s a super nice guy, but we didn’t stay long. We went to the most ghetto laundromat and I did 4 washer loads at $1.50 each. It didn’t take long, before we got to head to a playground to let the kids run.
Today was a sunshiney lazy day. I had some intense communication with Joe. I’m still not sure about anything but that I have two kids to take care of and a heart to follow, but where its leading is so unclear to me.
In the evening, I took the kids to a bar on hippy dippy street in Tucson. They played giant Jenga and pool. Atreyu made friend and wanted to stay forever but little Galixy seems to be a homebody tonight and wanted to be in the bus right around bed time.
So, the hot topic on my mind to touch tonight is the reform what that annoying “victory” sign people flash to tell people “peace”. It looks like this, sure you’ve seen it:
Why? A little history: in the 1960’s the hand symbol for “victory” for the Vietnam war was adopted by the counter culture to mean “peace.” So maybe they wanted to reclaim something or the victory was to mean peace for everyone.
But I dont like it. Victory over another doesn’t inherently mean peace for anyone. “Victory” is still one energy winning over another which leaves the other in a very possible state of non-peace, desparaty comes to mind. Peace can be achieved without there being a victor without leaving another entity feeling drained. (If you want a clear imagery of where my perspective on this is coming from you should read “the Celestine Prophecy.”) So I have to come up with a new way to reclaim hand gesturing.
What brings peace? Going all hippie here because this philosophy just feels light. Obviously, war doesn’t bring peace. The opposition would be love. Acceptance. What way can I simply hand gesture “love” at someone? Smiling and waving is great. Bringing some light into some peoples day or life, whichever they choose is awesome, but there’s got to be a way to communicate peace or love or acceptance instead of flashing “victory”. Then, it hit me. I’d been doing baby sign with the kids, but even before then, as a kid, the first sign I ever learned to sign was “I love you”. Need a refresher? I got you!
So simple! And I get to feel like spiderman. Just kidding, I felt kinda silly actually first few times I tried it out. It helped when I added a verbal “peace” to it, just a mental bridge or something.
What do you think? Wanna help me reform? Tell someone? wave an “ILY” at someone? I would be so delighted if someone decided to flash that instead of “v” at my hippie bus. I have nothing to do with victories over others, but I do appreciate them wishing me peace..? Do they actually, though, or is it just something you connect to “hippies”? Let’s not get on this tangent cause I’m not a hippie, really (we’ll get to that topic later)
On any account, I just had a 20 minute break in the somewhere cuddling the cat. He’s a lover. Whilst doing so I realized I own a Kater. Which is the german word for a male cat. It reminded me that it was the cutesie name Atreyu’s father came up with, he’d call me Katze and I him Kater. I much relish my current Kater. He is very loving and playful. He also comes back to my bus on his own. I wonder what Atreyu’s dad would think of us living like this now. He hasn’t unblocked me in almost 5 years. I hope he’s happy and ended up going to University. He never wanted to be a dad and made it beyond clear always, except for the moment I told him I was going to keep the baby and he tried to force himself into that role that wasnt his. Sorry he felt the need to flee the way he did, but now I’ve rambled off on another tangent.
Do I write too much? Should I rather do multiple short blog entries with clear lines and definition?
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