I’ve been lazy in writing and I’m very sorry for it. Not just for you but for me. But I have a lot to cover right now so first off my excuse: sitting around the desert I haven’t gotten much accomplished. There’s a new shelf over the stove and I did a few wire wraps but mostly it was nonsense. The kids had lots of free roaming time and we had some intensive work on their behavior and driving me less crazy. After I drove the bus to town, some guys drove all over the desert to locate our parking spot to talk to me about it. They were fairly impressed. I got to see a plethora of people, ranging from emet<3, to peaches, before we headed out of quartzsite. Here are some pics of kids and art:
So, we have our regular slow start yesterday morning, but eventually get everything packed up and cleaned and on the road to a truck stop where I sat out for a few hours. My cash flow had been slow for the last weeks and i had spent more money than usual, Gem traps and utility tents, so I cursed the slow roll of my spangles little. All in all I ended up getting plenty of jugs filled for my tank so that I could avoid putting cash in all together and managed to bump my savings back to barely over $300. Measly, I know, but those dollars will be turned over and some fun experiences are in our future.
So, i gotta catch up a minute. The day before leaving quartzsite, I answered a call for help from an internet connection. Her bus is having issues and she is sitting with her kid, stranded in phoenix. I know that Joe could supply her with some answers and some feasible solutions, so I led him, very nondiscreetly, over to her. There also were some set backs on Joe’s situation, so I made it before him by long.
Katie seems a little reserved. Maybe I’ve taken the lead on that situation? She seems very laid back. Her daughter is a sweet red head. She is very sharp and about Galixy’s age, so it was easy for Atreyu and Galixy to work with her timid demeanor. Soon they were running around the deserted parking lot.
This morning after a mellow wakeup, Joe looked at the Bus and came up with a good solution for her, so we have a plan. Since Katie has to wait for her keys, we had a free day. I invited her to go to a playground with dog park to let her big dog get some exercise and let the kids run and get her out of the parking lot all together for a few hours.
After all the running in the sun, I went grocery shopping and got all kinds of lovely goodness. We had dank dinner; Katie made sauce and I boiled ravioli. We had a wonderful dinner in the parking lot set up between the busses and Joe’s camper. The moon is splendid and full tonight.
So here’s some more thoughts I wrote down not to long ago that are still present:
I’m having a tough time because I’m at the beginning of a relationship. This used to mean good things like wearing pink glasses, but nowadays those glasses seem dangerous. Am I giving my kids enough attention? What if this fails? It could hurt us all, and the more I let us go down this rabbit hole, the more its gonna hurt… being a single mom is safe because it’s what I know… dont pink glasses nix out red flags? Can’t have that. What am I missing? Or am I seeing it all and refusing to know that it IS all because my wall is too high…?
I feel like I’m a somewhat mess. I know I could use help, but generally I only take the help I really need and try my best for the rest. I dont want to tax anyone. But now we add a human being who genuinely wants to be here for us. He enjoys our company and is great company, as well. I really wish I didn’t feel such a reserve about this. I feel like my life is lining up in more than just a wishful thinking way, but the universe is moving at me once again. My dreams have had consistent themes with areas and I’m pretty sure I’m moving towards it all. I just also feel like I’m standing in my own way. Possibly. The runes speak of Mankinds Karma and Channels opening.
One thing’s for sure. I’m keeping my eyes open, and leaving major decisions to future me and more importantly time.
Right now, the order is to charge my phone and cuddle the kids watching “we bought a zoo” before hopefully making another entry.
What more can I tell you about? We’ll see!
Loving you!
Matilda the Bugus 