Quartzsite and thoughts

So first off I want to share *my* (our) stats of 2018:

For a beginning, I will consider it a grande one! It makes me hopeful that I could be successful in many other beginnings, too. I.e.: YouTube blogger, qr code sporter, PayPal owner, and online fundraiser. Obviously my jewelry making never had a good start, just a slow drag of inventory over stocking. I enjoy making it though, and rock hounding with the kids is fun, so it’s not like I’m giving anything up when I bundle more onto me.

At this point I feel the need to explain my justification to “begging”, “spanging”, “sign flying”, or whatever you want to call it. I dont think I could justify myself asking others for their money. Who am I to deserve it? What can I do for you to deserve your money? Well, I’m raising two excellent children that deserve a village I’m incapable of providing on my own. I dont want to put them in day care so I can work to afford day care. I want them to feel loved. I can’t force their fathers’ to contribute financially (finding them is a big step, and I’m also not willing to give up anybody’s freedom by putting their names on papers), so my option is the public. But do I contribute? Yes! I think I do: I spread smiles and happy messages. I’m here for hard times and talking, inspirations, appreciations. Guys, I’ll appreciate the fuck out of your presence or smile. Just saying. I think that makes me (and my kids) a worthy investment. Let me just fling you out of your box!

Now, I want to share my kid’s art. They are gonna go far and do great things:

And I did some living art in the desert: a quartz fire pit I will light at dark, probably not as spectacular as I envision but I think it looks great:

I’m all over the place today, its morning and I’m trying to catch up before kids wake up. I want to mention GusinaBus on YouTube, included Matilda in his show and is the creator for the idea of my own vlog, which I’ve been avoiding for years. My camera presence, or presence in general, is wanting… I think I’m too harsh. Maybe I can’t deal with the attention on my face. But that may just be my brain making things worse than they are.

And, so, my last thing for this moment will be to leave you with my video editing attempt. It was sent to 3 messenger recipients, but I think you’ll enjoy it as well!

Loving you!